The Integrity of Desire

July 22, 2016

You are not exercising ‘free will‘ if your heart is not opening in an act of surrender to the Flow. If you have to think about it, it is not free will.

Free will is the freedom to simply serve existence while ‘higher mind‘ choreographs your role. It is your ‘power of being‘ when you are aligned with your Truth.

Free will is the ‘integrity of desire‘.

I like saints who are not above or below, but within. The truth of their ups and downs in devotional life are mirrors of our human condition. Their struggles for equilibrium, equanimity and equipoise are living chronicles of how humans ‘normally’ evolve by learning to love, and they have my support. Their stories represent a backlash to the failed pursuit of a religiously prescribed mood of valorous celibacy. So, how can I lose faith or be disappointed in them? After all, their pedestals of purity were fabricated out of fear, not love. This is not natural. I applaud any devotee of Divine Love and Divine Will who never stops showing us the path of self-realization, “As It Is,” full of dust and gravel and endless beauty within reach. It’s Ok To Know…

On the other hand, it is those who continue to pose as scions of piety, instead of adapting their lives to the practical reality of knowing the self, with dignified humility and honesty, who keep us mired in self-deceit. This does not mean that we are owed any explanations, but it does mean that these exalted souls should use their own biography to break down the barriers of institutional exceptionalism that turns away common sense minds from spiritual paths. Taking such responsibility will supercharge the saint’s spiritual life, due to the infusion of authenticity. Humans seem to the be the only living entity whose integrity can increase after suffering the fractures of “falling from grace.” Become To Know…

If our spiritual leaders set the example of practical spiritual living and vulnerability, their emphasis on the principles will have a far-reaching impact. The mood of worshiping any one physical incarnation of “holy person” boxes in all so-called religious organizations, restricting the free flow of love that is the source of all spiritual realization. Respect and veneration of our elders is one thing, but worshiping and following should be a personal activity. It is in such a relationship where true love blossoms. The network of loving association grows from within as one connects with other souls whose loving is also ripe or blossoming. Once we are loving, we are really living and it becomes easy to see that feeling the love is the proof of spiritual truth. Love To Know…

When we stop trying to imagine our way into the moods that we believe will take us towards spiritual achievement, and we instead focus on getting into a loving mood, we will realize how love works mysteriously, not logically or rationally. Authenticity is the basic inspiration of the loving mood that is the foundation of all spirituality. It’s ok to know that even our saints need to learn to love. By their honest example, we can become to know our self in love. Through gradual mastery of this mood, by living this love in personal relationships, we will love to know. The saints are all around us, and we would see this if we could stop ourselves from envying the qualities in other personalities that we wish we already possessed. The process is simple: Accept, Become and Cherish.

Living Moods

May 22, 2013

Character is the vehicle of mood. It is not who we are. It is how we are… Fine, dandy, ok, well… These are words that place us in the seat of judgment. When we ask or answer the question, “How are you?”, we are inviting or accepting the role of judge. But are we qualified to know? Who or what really decides “how” we are? It is our character, for character is what “moves” our moods, which wash over us like the unstoppable forces of nature, such as wind and rain storms, or a sunshiny day. Therefore, one’s moods are like the weather, which may be predictable to a degree, but is always changing and commands our perpetual adaptation.

Mastery of Nature is not in the stopping of it, for it is natural to be a “product” of our environment. We inhabit Nature, just as who we are is hidden within how we are. If one desires to experience different weather, a change of geographical locality is a logical step, but locality only determines the patterns. It cannot transcend Nature itself, therefore it is just another adaptation. Similarly, we take our Self wherever we go; whatever or wherever or whoever we put our Self into, therein we are. That locality becomes an aspect of our nature.

Character is the framework of feeling. When we say that we are “moved”, it is not our nature that moves us, but our character. If our character is well-suited to our nature, then all activity flows without struggle, just like a river opens into the sea. How we feel comes from the framework, which is our philosophical foundation, the philosophy that we embody or personify. That is to say, that our character is living philosophy. So, when we experience our nature, our character is guiding the conversation that our consciousness is having with nature. This conversation between one’s consciousness and one’s nature manifests and is observable through one’s actions. That is why the old saying is that, “actions speak louder than words.”

We experience a person through their actions, but what we are really observing is the momentum of their mood, carried by the motion of their character, inspired by their nature. The person’s mood reaches us and then becomes like an ocean upon which our character must navigate. So then, our character becomes our sea vessel. Our moods that travel via our character represent our potency and therefore our potential to experience and to be experienced by others.

The character that we choose to build is the full expression (or mood) of our free will. When we have the will (or mood) to change our life, we adapt our behavior, which is the conversation between our vessel (character) and our environment (nature). Therefore, we manifest experience by the force of our moods. Our mood employs our character without thinking about it. It embodies the vessel of our character in order to behave or have action (which is to ‘be’).

“To be, or not to be, that is the question.” (,_or_not_to_be)

What are we then if not expressions of will to be experienced?

We are Living Moods.

The Taste of Being

October 29, 2012

From one who has much potential, much preparation should be expected. Preparing for one’s potential is the process of developing a relationship with Destiny. God’s Plan (or ‘Design’) is for us to realize a loving relationship (or Rasa) with one of the Divine personalities, according to the potential that we have cultivated.

As long as we feel that an Other-self Soul is operating in humility, we should strive to recognize and honor the practice of their own religion within their life, although perhaps silently by not offering criticism. It does not matter if we can personally relate to the other-self soul’s conception of what is worshipable within this Reality, for service to the Absolute Truth is going on in so many ways every day. Rare are those souls whose God actually speaks back interactively in an objectifiably observable manner.

The truth of all religion is that humility is synonymous with truth, which in its purest form manifests as religion. In this way, it is impossible to know the other-self soul’s heart without knowing their religion. However, through humility, one can learn to relate “heart to heart” with others without having to accept the details of the other’s religion. On such an elevated platform of understanding, we can begin to account for taste after all, and we see that there is always a preceding pattern to one’s consciousness from which our potential is perpetually manifesting. This design is the Taste of Being. It is the cause of all causes. Pure Emotion. Pure Love.

The essence of words is perceived through the awareness of one’s consciousness. If one is comfortable attempting to describe the metaphor that is God, one might say that God is consciousness possessing the aspect of infinite and total awareness. God would therefore be All and One, Alpha and Omega, Abstract and Ontological. I present this perspective for its “As above, So below” applicability. To say that one unit of consciousness expands its awareness is to state that one’s experience of the knowledge that is awareness, which is God in its essential totality, continues to approach tangible oneness, union, yoga with the DIVINE. Therefore, the metaphor of expanded awareness is describing what Yogiraj states (in this video: as “You are God to the extent you know God. Live for God, God lives for you.”

Further still, when Yogiraj states “Consciousness one’s only god,” he is stating that knowing self, which is essentially consciousness, is the only way to know God. He is therefore directing the quest for spirituality within. The progressive expansion of the aware-ness (being-ness) of one’s conscious-ness (perceptive-ness) is the emptying of the self of all material substance, including thought, which is what gives any ‘thing’ form. As such, the expanded consciousness has the nature of nothing-ness, which is simultaneously all and one, formless, in proportion to one’s experience of the awareness that is God. From this perspective, to say God is Consciousness is to say God is Awareness, which is the result of knowing that “I think (consciousness) therefore I am (awareness).”

Nodes of Knowing

August 26, 2012

The nature of one’s consciousness enables the perception of beauty in the “Other Self” soul’s consciousness. When the experience is mutual, a Love Connection is made and inspiritation flows freely between one’s “Self” and “Other Self” as Nodes of Knowing within the Emotional Web of Conscious Living.  In this moment, the Siren’s Song appears to have found its purpose at last, and rather than dancing alone we realize that Dancing Together is our most natural desire and imperative.  One’s truth is reflected in the beauty of one’s nature.  Understanding how truth and beauty comingle as Self is the Tattva (truth/principle) of Rasa (beauty/essence), which forms the imaginitive entryway to the experience of Divine Love through Divine Will.

Make Love Not War – Engage In UltraLife Yoga

I have found that at a certain point in one’s spiritual progress one’s intuition blossoms into authenticity that cannot be denied. For me this came before I decided to explore adopting religion as a platform for spiritual exploration. It was only after I felt total trust in the sincerity of my intuition’s desire for spiritual truth and service that I felt comfortable interacting with religion once again, after having abandoned it in my late adolescence.

As a programmer, philosopher and poet, I am a conscious observer. I have never really relied on others to tell me how things operate. To me, studying programs, philosophies and poems in a scholarly fashion would only serve to help me construct, formulate and compose variations on similar themes, what many refer to as “reinventing the wheel”.

Instead, my process is intuitive rather than scholarly. This enables me to see life as a dance of artful expression and experience that guides us as much as we guide it, that loves us as much as we love it, a realm of reciprocating emotionality and recursive feedback. Therefore, I am not interested in boiling down truth to a series of spiritual or material equations. After all, objective truth is insubstantial.

Certainly there are limits to what can be expressed through the gross and subtle material senses and faculties, but they possess the duality of input and output. Somewhere in the infinitesimal middle lies the pure potency of potential. When this is visualized with activated authenticity of self (even without full knowledge of self), a connection to Divine Love is established.

Once a taste of Divine Love enlivens the sincerity of one’s intuition, the Divine Will begins to directly guide everything in our life. This leads to direct (as opposed to indirect) experience of knowledge, what some may call truth. One begins to realize that life is less and less characteristic of a pinball in the game machine.

As our truth interacts with the beauty we are now able to percieve in other individuated consciousnesses (‘Other Self’ souls), the union is experienced as Love. This is what it means to “make love not war”. When this love-making propensity permeates our consciousness consistently, we attract ‘Other Me’ souls who will naturally desire to play with us, if we play nicely.

The new associations that our truth attracts, projected as the inner orb of beauty known as the intuitive self, provide the poles needed in order to complete the circuit of inspiration. Without establishing these circuits, what one feels to be love exchanged between birds of a feather is nothing more than a vain reflection of an aspiration to feel understood, a shallow shade of acceptance. Such superficial affinity in the union (yoga) of souls pales in comparison to even the occassional experience of the UltraLife yoga of souls deeply connected inspirationally. This co-creative loving engagement is the substrate of a blissful spiritual journey, for it is rooted in the deep humility recognized in and reciprocated from the heart of the ‘Other Me’. Such knowing is the height of loving potential, and for me at least is invaluable and irreplaceable.

Simply put, UltraLife yoga is the secret yoga that lights the dark night of the soul which inevitably comes as we progress spiritually in ways that ‘Separated Self’ souls would seek to deny, discount or diminish. Nobody can teach this yoga. It is revealed as the gift of sincere surrender to the flow of Divine Love through Divine Will.

God is consciousness. Consciousness is the Alpha and the Omega. Everything is conscious, symbiotically aware of its role. You know without being conscious of it. To be conscious of God within us is to develop into our role, which is to be spiritualized expressions of divine will, free will. Realizing the self is the process of becoming fully spiritualized as an expression of unconditional love. Experiencing this knowledge is why ‘we’ are here. From this angle of vision there is only love. Our choices are spiritual concerns given form for the tasting of bliss. To be fully spiritualized or self-realized is to be tasting, serving and disseminating God’s love. A loving relationship with God is the infinite loop of consciousness, knowing and loving God as a personality, which we choose according to our grace. It’s OK to know. It is DIVINE to love.

It’s OK To Know

July 14, 2011

It's Ok To Know

Roles worn loosely
Garmentry for souls
Still trapped
In the illusion

Embracing wisdom
Naked to reason
Thoughts cease
Feeling for understanding

Imagining cosmic stardust
Draping stormy clouds
Within mind’s eye
Dissolving into consciousness

Love inspires surrender
Unto the magic
Of understanding that
It’s ok to know

It’s OK to Know

April 1, 2010

In the Beginning, there was very little known to man, except that which was directly experienced. Experiments were the rule not the exception. Humans lived lives of meaningful discovery.

Nowadays we are programmed from birth and all too many factors influence what we know about our local environment and indeed the world. We have learned to accept so much information as fact, as certainty, based on the assurances of society’s elders. Those fortunate enough to become educated beyond high school often come away from college not certain of what they actually know and how useful that information is.

At every turn, a conscious choice to think deliberately is discouraged. The subtle suggestion is to think reactively. Go with your gut they tell you – wise advice if your intuition ‘knows’.

Modern society, especially in the realm of the technologically elite, has become an increasingly complex series of lab-rat-stories. Our intuition is being shaped by Pavlovian forces like never before. However, once an individual’s consciousness realizes that its intuition has been hijacked, it can be difficult to cope.

This blog is here to tell you that you can reorient your mind, that you can know what is real, what is truth. There is but one rule: believe not in the absolute.

Allow yourself to accept that knowing is not an exercise in “the wisdom of crowds”, and that it can be a lonely place. In fact, you may find that you are less inclined to express your opinion once you connect with a deeper understanding of this life and whatever future lies ahead.

In this case, it’s not a choice of red pill or blue pill. It’s not a choice of salvation or damnation. The choice is to evolve or to not. Otherwise, we are little more than lab rats.

It’s OK to Know…